11/21/07 Not quite the personality

Hey Guys:

Just a quick blog, because I am not much in the mood to blog. A few weeks ago, my dad and I were talking about careers and what I want to do in the future. My dream as a little kid was always to be a local tv reporter as a 28 year old I want this to be my reality. I know I have only finished a year and half of college, but I can always go back.

A lot of the reason I dropped out was because of depression, ocd and anxiety. And not because I am lazy. As we chatted my dad told me not to go into local television or radio. He said it was WAY too competitive, in some way some of his reasoning is something to consider. He also wants me to be realistic.

Instead, he said when the time is right he would like to help me open/buy a dunkin' donuts. The thing is I have no interest in business or opening a dunkin' donuts. I think this is his what he interested in. He is always looking for projects, since he retired.

In the last few years I have made a ton of progress and I have the right therapist now, who is helping me a ton. Somedays I feel like I am starting and square one, but you have to remember that there will always be some setbacks in progress.

My dad said I have a nice personality, but not the right personality for local tv news. Maybe he is right. But I am spending way too much fantazing about/thinking about it. I should just move ahead if I am really interested.

I have talked to some local tv personalities and from what I gather its VERY TOUGH. But a lot of things in my life have been TOUGH. From what I gather about local radio/local television is a lot of it is has to with being in the right place, at the right time. And knowing the right people.

The United States his huge, aand there are tons of small local tv markets to start in.

My dad said to me when we were having this talk about being a local tv reporter, he said "C'mon Justin, what do you really know about being a reporter??". In truth, Not much. But I can learn if I get back in school. My question for him(although, I did not ask) is what do I know about opening a Dunkin' Donuts??. I know nothing about the food industry and how to run it or a business. I guess I could learn, but my dad likes business. And Dunkin' seems like his dream, not mine.

My dad told me recently that most of the world does not have the luxury to be analytical, this is probably true. But since he retired, he sure seems to have a lot of time to be analytical of me.

Lately, I have been a little bit more phobic then usual. My therapist said today I am spending a little too much time with my dad, I concur. He said I was doing better when I wasn't talking to him as much. I am not going to stop, just keep remembering that some distance is okay.

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Justin